Fragmented thoughts like puffy white clouds blown away by the South Easter

Too many emotions and pregnancy hormones make me feel like I’m losing my mind;

My patience with the boys is at an all-time low, I seriously need to be a better teacher

The worries and stresses are sometimes too much, some peace I must find.

 

I scream and I shout when I don’t get listened to

I MUST remember they are only children and it’s just my hormones that are making me crazy

I find fault in everything I do, how am I going to be a good mother to three never mind two?

My husband does so much to help around the house, I feel like I need to do more, stop being lazy.

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Taken on Valentine’s Day

How can you crave everything dairy but then suddenly develop pregnancy induced lactose intolerance?

Or get told you need to have a caesarean when all you wanted was to try and birth naturally?

I can’t go to the loo or take a shower in peace, I can do absolutely nothing without an audience

I’m overwhelmed, I need to take a break, I need to do something to get through the rest of this pregnancy happily.

 

I love being pregnant, I love my family, I’m looking for things in my life that will lift my mood

I have a job, I’m healthy and able, and I have so much support and a lot more love;

I’m looking forward to seeing this baby, oh that and the fact that I can eat all the food

I should be grateful and complain less, I should give thanks to God above.

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12 weeks along